give me one reason

not to cut off my finger
in this bathroom

i have the knife
it’s for cutting chicken bones
i’m sure it will go right through me
i have the rags
to stop the bleeding
i have the hydrogen peroxide
to stop the infection

give me one reason

not to cut off my finger
and flush it down the toilet

i have the knife
and the rags
and the disinfectant
i locked the door
no one is awake

no one would hear me
even if i screamed
and even if i screamed
no one would come running
and even if someone came running
they wouldn’t be able to open the door
and even if they could open the door
they wouldn’t be able to stop me in time
and even if they could stop me in time

and they asked me
what are you doing
and i told them
i’m going to cut off my finger
and they asked me
why
and i told them
give me one reason not to

they would have nothing to say