pictures

I.

drop out of school
drop out of society
go homeless
carry a camera on a strap around your neck

take pictures of sleeping squatters
take pictures of broken houses
take pictures of your naked holocaust body
take pictures of your skin scraped off on the bricks
take pictures of the holes in your feet
take pictures of the cat you killed
take pictures of yourself curled up in a dumpster
take pictures of yourself turning to dust
take pictures of gravestones with no names on them yet
take pictures of empty whipped cream cans
take pictures of rubber cement pots

take pictures of your invisible skin
take pictures of your fragile bones
take pictures of your crumbling teeth
take pictures of your infected gums
take pictures of yourself going blind
take pictures of yourself going bald
take pictures of yourself getting fat
take pictures of your matted pubic hair
take pictures of your flabby gut
take pictures of your penis withdrawing into your body
take pictures of your swollen joints
take pictures of your sunken ribcage
take pictures of your purple pimples
take pictures of your degenerating brain
take pictures of everything until everything is just a picture

take a picture of yourself being left behind
take a picture of yourself being forgotten
take a picture of your friends moving away
take a picture of your parents moving on
take a picture of your blank future
take a picture of everything that is ruined
take a picture of everything that you ruined
take a picture of the bruises on your arms
take a picture of the blood on your clothes
take a picture of the snow and the ice
take a picture of the empty bottle
take a picture of the empty body
take a picture of a lullaby

go to sleep
go to sleep
go to sleep
go to sleep

II.

you’ve fucked everything
you’ve killed us
you’ve killed yourself
you’ve fucked everything
you’ve burnt down the house
you’ve molested your little sister
you’ve flunked out of school
you’ve forgotten your address
you’ve made us hate you
you’ve made yourself loathsome
you’ve made yourself ugly
you’ve screamed at everyone
you’ve written with shit on the walls
you’ve eaten all of your mother’s pills
you’ve pissed your pants
you’ve laughed and spit on yourself
you’ve gone insane
you’ve been sent to the prison for insane people
you’ve forgotten how to think
you’ve forgotten how to talk
you’ve forgotten how to wipe your ass
you’ve forgotten how to bathe
you’ve hurt yourself again
you’ve made us tie you up
you’ve made us lock you up
you’ve hurt us
you’ve made us hurt you
you’ve hurt yourself again
you’ve forgotten your name
you’ve lost your TV privileges
just sit in the corner
just sit in the corner
and think
about what you’ve done
about what you’ve done to us
about what you’ve done to yourself
about what you’ve done to us

III.

take pictures of everything you fucked up
take pictures of everything so you have a picture of it
take pictures of everything until everything is OK again
take pictures until everything is OK again
take pictures to take away the sickness
take pictures of your sickness
take pictures of anything
take pictures of everything until everything is just a picture

take pictures until they stop coming out wrong
take pictures until you’ve gotten good
practice makes perfect
take pictures until they’re worth something
take pictures until you’re a famous artist
take pictures and maybe someday you’ll be good
take pictures and maybe someday you’ll be rich
take pictures and maybe someday you’ll be make your parents
proud
take pictures and maybe someday you’ll be able to afford a doctor
take pictures and maybe someday you can get out of here
take pictures and everything will be OK
take pictures and maybe everything will be OK
keep taking pictures
don’t stop
you can’t stop now
where would you be
if you didn’t have your pictures
everything else is gone
everything else is fucked
you’re dying
you’re dying
you’re dying
you’re disappearing
you’re dying
you’re dying
you’re dying
you’re dying
you’re dying
everything is ending
everything is over
everything is ruined
everything is fucked
you’re dying
you’re dying
you’ve killed us
you’ve fucked up
you’ve killed us
you’ve killed yourself
you’ve killed us
everything is fucked
you’ve fucked everything
you’re dying
you’re dying
you’re dying
you’re dying
you’re dead